clutter into order (ordered clutter?)

i was going to go on about how the house is turned up on its head as we move the clutter into chaos into order. but then, i realized this is true of where i am in all things in some ways lately. and then i knew i was too sleepy to dive into all that comes with admitting this.

take another breath.

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All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.

- Anatole France

a moment

Inside myself is a place where I live all alone, and that's where I renew my springs that never dry up.
- Pearl Buck

i took a moment at the end of a long, busy day to create a small altar in the bathroom. i took a moment to breathe and drink tea and watch the candle flicker. i took a moment to sink into the quiet. i took one brief moment just for me.

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the house is a bit turned on its head right now as we star in our self-created episode of an HGTV show. a day at IKEA and a big delivery tomorrow. with the help of my mom (she is visiting), we are hoping to find order in the midst of the clutter and chaos we have been living in for too long.

tonight, after the house became quiet and the work was done, i gathered some favorite stones and shells and other bits from the bookshelves we were emptying and moved them to a new home.

a cocoon

a cocoon of quiet and truth. this is what i find in moments in the shower. i soak up the quiet as i lean my forehead against the cool wall and give myself permission to open my mind to whatever i need to think about, dream about, hope for. i give myself permission to breathe as the water cascades down my body. i give myself permission to seek answers in the quiet.

when i step from the shower, some days i remember to will the cocoon to stay with me. some days i remember to hold on to what i have sought, what i have learned.

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carla has started a project called my sacred life; she is posting a picture a day with the idea being "to creatively connect with the holiness of everyday life." she has invited folks to join her in this idea, and i decided i would accept that invitation, knowing i might not post everyday but that i will enjoy trying as i seek the sacred in my life.