i want to tell you...
windowsill . frog creek lodge, fall 2010 be present retreat
in the time i am spending in my studio creating necklaces this month, i have been brainstorming about the many things i want to tell you here.
(there is so much i want to tell you.)
i want to tell you about the beauty that can be found when you slow down, close the laptop, and look at your life.
i want to tell you about how my heart often aches because my body and soul have been through so much in the last 16 months. (so much has happened.) i want to tell you the pieces of this truth and about how i am trying to stand still in the healing waters.
i want to tell you about how i have begun to let go of a belief that life is about finding balance between work and family and seems to be more about finding you and what makes your heart rest inside truth when you stand eye to eye with yourself.
i want to tell you about rocking ellie to sleep at night while i chant a song from my teacher and how this has become an act of self-nurturing.
i want to tell you about how hard it is to take in kind words even when you know they are real.
i want to tell you (i want to tell me) about how it feels not to receive what you are asking for and how this sadness still becomes part of the healing.
i want to tell you about how powerful the mirror meditation continues to be as part of my personal practice. there are moments when i feel as though i might be fading away, but the act of taking a deep breath and looking in the mirror always pushes me to be seen.
i want to tell you about these fantastic boots i have been wearing and how they make me feel like i could truly kick some serious ass.
i want to tell you about how all that has happened in the last year has taught me that the best thing you can do when someone is experiencing some major stuff is to listen and then say a variation on, "is there anything i can do?" and mean it.
i want to tell you about what you might want to think about doing if your friends find themselves in the ICU with a loved one.
i want to tell you about how things are not always what they seem (and how i think we should throw open the windows to let assumptions of the destructive kind float on out of our lives).
i want to tell you about all that is inspiring me these days.
i want to tell you about how much i want to start heading to seattle on sundays for my teacher's yoga class, but thinking about hearing her nurturing voice makes me fear that i might cry the entire time.
yes, there is so much i want to tell you...maybe i will begin with this list.
until then, perhaps you could tell me something about you...what do you most need to tell someone?
what is real in make a list.
Reader Comments (20)
I have to admit, I've really fallen out of the blogging world...but then I stop by to visit you and, oh girl. You are just as beautiful as ever. xo
Thank you for telling me... the only person I need to tell is myself... I need to remind myself that it will work out, maybe not ok, but whatever the outcome I can get through this...
:-)
(((hugs)))
I am wondering why I don't own any stripped socks or pretty shoes. It's kinda sad...and weird.I respolve to buy at least one pair of joyful socks this weekend.
Thank you, Liz, as always. I hear your needs and treasure them as my own.
What do I need? The peace of mind, the strength, the courage to make a final decision about the Your Story Be present retreat. I can't believe how difficult it has been, and maybe my inability to believe it -- to really acknowledge what I'm afraid of and allow that tiny flame of hope that I may still be able to attend gently extinguish -- is the very thing that's holding me back.
This feels like such a pivotal moment in my life.
One blessing is that I've discovered just how many people in my life "get it", in one way or another.
I still feel like I'm waiting for a miracle, though.
That I'm waiting for my life to regain some resemblance to normal...no idea what that is, so maybe just accepting the new normal!
i want to tell you how soothing your words are, like a chant. i want to tell you how growth is hard even when, especially when, it is necessary.
i agree with laurie (above post) & i would like to tell "someone" that even though i've been hurt, i am trying my best to come to terms with it all even though i don't understand it.
your post resonates with me...it's like yoga for the mind.
I just ordered your book from Amazon, and I can't wait to get my hands on it!
Best wishes for the new year ;)
Beautiful as always! I most need to tell and hear You Are Enough, right now, just as you are.. You are loved, you have value, and gifts that go way beyond what you believe about yourself.. Trust, Listen.. Be
I need to tell you that I am finding my way through the dark and that today I can see a bright light shining around me. I also want to tell you that I think you're cool. :)
i want to tell you how much is see you, even though we are separated by so many dang states,
many days as i sit on the couch - i send you hugs. i hope you feel them.
I want to tell someone how sorry I am for being in denial for so long. That I understand now and I am here for them. That I treasure every moment I spend with them.
I want to tell you how much I love your blog. How I found it via Vivienne's blog. How I hope to meet both of you someday (I live near Seattle).
I want to ask you, would you be willing to start a mirror meditation group again?
Blessings,
You're telling us and we're listening.
I have things to say and hope others are listening as well.
i want to tell someone (me) that balance is merely an illusion. it's okay to feel this way, to get crabby, to pull inward - it's simply all okay.
I also want to tell you that your beautiful, soothing words resonated with me so. And that I'm ready to stop trying to create who I think I should be and start discovering who I really am.
xo,
janna
I want to tell someone that it is time for me to finally heal and feel whole again......not feel so broken inside.
i want to tell someone how i find it so hard to be a mother sometimes and how hard i want to cry and it all just stops in my heart and doesn't come flowing out.
And I am listening...
I want to tell you that I am tired: of being sick, of being positive, of not sleeping, of worrying. I want to tell you that it's hard: to feel alone, to keep going, to keep smiling. I want to tell you that I'm frustrated: with my health, with my friends, and with my life. I want to tell you: I appreciate your vulnerability, your openness, and your candor. You all have truly touched my heart.