today, this is what i know.

 

i heard your laughter today. it rang out inside me like a whisper from long ago. years now. the last time we talked has been almost half a decade ago. in this moment, i want to tell you all that has happened. i was so lost, searching my pockets constantly for a flashlight so i could find my way. and then, through that darkness, that grief, that fear, i suddenly looked up and saw all the lights around me. some were far far in the distance, but they stood there waiting. patiently. while i just kept going, even when i found myself back in the same place for a bit. i would tell you about how i one day realized that the lights were not only surrounding me with their guidance and truth and love, but that the light lived within me. within me. and i knew i would never again be alone. did you learn this truth when you were here? how i wish i could tell you. how i wish i could invite you to stand in your light and know. in this moment, i sit here with this truth within my heart while another light within me grows and twirls and beats each day, waiting. and when she arrives, i will teach her this truth. maybe i am already teaching her. i will teach her about the light within her. i will tell her about the light grief gifted me. i will teach her about the day i thought i was never going to find my way and then i looked up. i will tell her all that you teach me even now. even now when your laughter is...even now when you are...a memory.

Comments

[doorways traveler]

stunning and true.
so glad i clicked over today. what a gift.

[stef]

you touched my heart today.
xo

[gem]

this moves me so...
xo

[Judy Merrill-Smith]

YES.

[Michelle Ensminger]

beautiful...so beautiful...

[Patty]

I love being reminded about the light within - again and again, because, well, I can't seem to remember it on my own. Thank you, sweet Liz.

[marilyn]

stunning soul. thank you for reminding me again about your true beauty and that i too have that little light. you ARE already teaching your little bean

[JanePoet ~ JP/deb]

You will teach her and she will teach you. That is the beauty of parenting.

xx,
deb

[Jennifer]

Liz this is beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes. You are such a wise soul. Sending you love!

[kolleen]

what a lovely post....
thank you for sharing this with us...
thank you for reminding us of this light we each have within us...

sending love and hugs,
k

[Meri]

You will gift your beautiful baby with so much, just as your were inspirited by those who loved you.

[Christina]

"i will tell her about the light grief gifted me..." YES. YES.

So beautiful.