the thoughts, thoughts, thoughts
just shy of 36 weeks, about 10 days ago . photo by Jon
oh the monkey mind with its active, neverending jumping from one branch to another combined with pregnancy brain...quite the combination...just a few of the things my brain has sifted through today:
this might be the last day that i spend more than 15 hours on my four jobs (editor, author, etsy shop girl, retreat organizer) for months.
when is the nesting going to cause me to actually dust the dust i see on this table next to me?
i heart iced tea.
love that my hair is wavy when i take it out of the funny poofy buns i had it in today. i should take a photo. right now. but i don't want to move.
millie is the sweetest. how is she going to react to the adventure/noise/craziness that is to come? (ahh...how am i going to react to it?)
something has to be done with the little room this summer. too crowded. horrible light. it needs a makeover.
a book that i wrote is coming out this year. as in coming to a store near you. (breathe)
i can no longer avoid the fact that i am super duper pregnant. me. and instead of being terrified, i am just really looking forward to meeting her. but i am also mystified that she could decide she wants to show up at anytime. like now or now or........now.
why did you let me cut my own bangs when i was tired over the weekend? i am sweeping them to the side hoping no one notices that they are kinda reminiscent of my fifth-grade handiwork years ago.
how many times can one go to the bathroom in one day?
does anyone else wish that their friends lived closer to them or does everyone else just have friends across the street to visit anytime they want?
it is so quiet today. not one phone call.
thank you notes. gotta get on those.
there are members of my family just waiting to become grandparents. i bet that is a very cool feeling.
i wonder if my mom wishes she could talk to her mom about the grandparent thing.
paul simon. love him.
dancing the baby into my pelvis playlist. gotta finish it. so far: home, proud mary, graceland (the entire album), loreena mckennitt, a few from the chocolat soundtrack...what else?
close your eyes right now baby girl and remember who you are.
i wish you were here.
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a teeny sneak peek about the fall 2010 be present retreat, reveal, is up. more information to come friday!
loving this anne lamott article kelly rae sent me earlier this week.
and this post of jen lee's spoke right to the guts of who i am.
make a list.
Reader Comments (12)
Liz,
I love this post...following your train of thought in all of its discursive loveliness.
Best to you,
Delia
The anne lamott article is fabulous, and so true. My son is now 24...yikes. You asked about friends, yes, I am feeling the same way lately, I wrote a post on my Mrs Mediocrity blog last week entitled "i am thinking i could use a friend." It is here if you are so inclined: http://www.mrsmediocrity.com/?p=1670
We are at very different points in our lives, you and I, but your writing always resonates with me. Your photo is beautiful.
i, too, have friends that i wish lived closer...most of the time. and the whole "waiting to be a grandparent" thing....you are so very right. it absolutely is the coolest feeling in the world! my daughter is expecting a little girl, just as you are. it will be my 2nd grandchild...and it never, ever gets any "less cool." !! what a wonderful journey you are on....
did i ever tell you about the time i talked trey into cutting my banges...not my best idea...
more than ever, I wish that my friends lived closer, that I felt a sense of (local) community. While I can feel you from across the miles, I wish I could walk right over, with a hug, or with a meal for after the baby comes...or that someone would have stopped by with a meal for my family since my recent ordeal...it's the little things that lift us up.
Hoping that you feel surrounded & supported in the love & light being sent your way, hoping that it is enough for now.
I can't wait to meet that sweet little baby girl!
What a beautiful post. Oh the adventures that lay ahead. Take your time and enjoy each one.
Look at you!! You are so beautiful!! Seems you were meant for this journey. I love being able to witness it.
And that retreat....HOLY COW!! AMAZING!!
oxoxox
Thinking of you and your wonderful journey ahead....sending love your way!
millie really is the sweetest. i so bet that she'll harness that calmness inside her and really impress you around the lil' one!
i would love to see a pic of your hair in those buns. i love that.
i really love paul simon too.
i wish i lived right next to you.
i can't wait to meet her!
What a gloriously beautiful photo of you!
I smile as I read your words and think of your life as it is right now.
Hugs of love and care,
Lisa
hello beautiful.
xo
I wish I had friends closer too. Across the street would be like heaven.
I remember cutting my bangs when I was young. I would wet them and cut, forgetting that they shrunk when dry. And yet after each mishap, I'd cut them again .. why do we never learn?