an afternoon chat (that is more like an evening podcast)
(so...this video post...
well...it is more like a podcast.
yes, that's it.
treat it like a podcast [in two parts].
or pretend you are sitting in the evening light with me and listening to me ramble [even though this was the middle of the day].
my little camera cannot handle these grey days.
and the lighting seemed fine on the camera.
but that did not translate when uploaded.
and well, i wanted to share these words.
thanks for putting up with me.)
did you take my dare from last week?
did you?
did you do something that surprised yourself? something outside your comfort zone?
did you take a step forward?
i would love to hear all about it...
(and thanks for putting up with the dark video. remember, just pretend it is a podcast.)
PS and jon and i just had a little talk about back lighting. yeah. guess i need to be aware of that. harumph.
liz lamoreux
Reader Comments (10)
I am proud of you...for asking for help...for accepting help...for taking the steps to actualize what you want and need and for sharing it with us. BIG BIG BIG
You already know about my hang up's and all the things that I both consciously and subconsciously that plain block me in my own journey...so of course this was just wonderful to listen to and really "hear."
And the last few lines about the tattoo? You had me laughing out loud!
xoxo
'living the life i want to live...' yes. as a clutter sister with a 2nd floor in my house in a shambles and all the things you said about the negativitity, about the self-hate...yes.
thank you sweets. xoxo
Thank you for the honesty of your words. A good friend can often be a mirror for us, to say the things we need to hear..and our role is then to listen so that we do hear.
That requires objectivity and honesty as well as trust.
What you spoke about made me sit up and take notice...of how I am also "guilty" of sabotaging myself when it comes to my creativity.
Thanks for the dare...I think I know what I need to do!!
My space is always between mess and outright disaster, and I tend not to invite folks over for that same reason. But -- I have invited people over with the warning that it's a mess, and have had a fine time, anyway. I am learning to accept my messy self, and learning to avoid disaster as much as possible. Bravo to you for asking for help! I think you've just inspired plans for my suddenly-uncommitted Saturday morning (the workshop I was going to teach got canceled)....
It is SO hard to ask for help sometimes. I think there have been times that I've even forgotten how until I find myself completely overwhelmed...I think it's great that you asked...and got such a wonderful result! Cheers to your new creative space!
And my answer to your dare...I managed to commit my entire family...my husband, and all three kiddies to shoveling out the basement this weekend. It has been a horrible catch-all for anything unwanted or unneeded in our home...and I have felt that negativity rising up for some time now. It has desperately needed some lovin' for a long time...
and I know just what you mean about the tatoo thing...:)
You described so much about my own life/mess/creative journey/self-loathing/panic. Thank you. It's good to know I'm not a freak of nature. :) I'm going to use this encouragement as the impetus to do what scares me: try to turn my house into my home. I use so many excuses, like I can't find stuff I like or I can't afford what I like. While those things are sometimes true, there are also plenty of other reasons: I'm afraid to start a new decorating or home improvement project b/c I might do it "wrong". Or, I've put off hanging art that I love because I don't know what frames to buy or am unsure of where to hang them.
And to do some of this stuff, I need to ask my partner for specific help. Oh, and if anyone is good with home decor and creating a nurturing nest that reflects a person's inner life, call me: I need your help! :)
I can't click because the speakers will wake my daughter, but I'll listen tomorrow....as for your post above, I think Pouty is in the air as our moon is full on Monday.
It's a weepy time for some of us. Me included.
xoxo
I love your honesty and candidness! And humor, you made me laugh about the tatoo!
I took your assignmnt to heart...In addition to signing up for Squam, I hung one of my paintings in my house (oh yes), showed all of them to a friend, and posted one on my blog. No eyes other than mine and God's have seen them before. Some are over a year old. It felt good to let them out, but there was (and still is) an immediate regret, like maybe this whole idea of me creating is a waste. So many gremlins to hush...they were definitely bothered by my little brave self :)
:) i know that feeling of overwhelm, panic and self-loathing .. i carried it with me to the coast and let it go into the ocean waves.
my house is now clean and i too asked for help and together we polished the surface leaving the bits of clutter for evening chipping away at. its a start. and it feels good.
i loved this, thank you, xo
What phenomenal wisdom, insight, truth, and encouragement you've offered here. And how lovely to have it in your own precious, loving voice!
One of my 'to-do' list items for January was to turn our 'office' space into MY office/creative space. It's now Feb. 9th and, while I've gotten rid of a few piles, nothing else has changed. I just said to Doug yesterday, I still REALLY want/need your help in changing the home office around. Can we do that soon?
So....listening to your words and experience was quite timely for me. I believe a transition like this will open new doors and creative opportunities and allow magical energy to flow through me.
Thanks so much for sharing your story and prompting us to take the next step :-)