feeling...
tired tonight. recovering from sunday's migraine complete with dizziness and blotches of wavy blurriness and the echoes of a bit of pain from my wisdom tooth pulling a week ago...
hopeful about a shift in the way i look at certain patterns in my life...being honest with myself about how repeating these patterns hasn't been working and deciding it is time (to try) to be honest with others as well.
happy about new designs that are making there way from paper to three dimensions.
melancholy about how much i miss her...found a picture this weekend that i have often passed by because it just isn't a great picture of me...but she looks beautiful...and i can't believe how healthy she looks...just nine years ago...how did she die six years later? how is it that it has almost been three years...the missing, the ache, will never leave...this is what i know to be true.
excited about an upcoming trip…chicago for the weekend and then indiana the next few days. "home" for the first time in over two years.
quiet about a few things…just needing a bit of space as i shift and push and breathe.
blessed to have friends (a couple near and few far) who get me…who really get me. (thank you)
my heart is open as i walk…as i dance…in my life.
it is what it is
Reader Comments (10)
There is nothing more beautiful than an open heart...and painful sometimes too. I am sure that being able to feel pain, sadness so strongly also allows us to feel the good things with more emotion too. I see many people around me who don´t allow themselves that, I´m glad you´re not one of them.
Hey there Liz. I don't comment as often as I should, but I read your blog every day. Just want to let you know I am thinking of you often. My heart feels a little fragile these days too-must be something in the air. Some days the tears seem to hover just below the surface, don't they? I like to think they help us heal.
Will I see you at Artfest?
xo
"quiet about a few things…just needing a bit of space as i shift and push and breathe."
this entire post is resonating so deeply, but most especially this line. my heart feels heavy and vulnerable and i'm struggling to redefine my perspective. i thank you for sharing these thoughts here.
sending you love and light, my beautiful friend.
xo
k
Beautiful. There is nothing more honest and real than opening yourself up to your emotions, to your life, in this whole hearted way. I admire you and am ALWAYS here if you want or need to talk!! xoxoxo
This post really resonated with me. thanks for sharing it.
Sitting with you...in silence..feeling....being...just there.
Maybe looking through all the albums and photographs? telling stories about her? crying? Remembering. laughing. cherishing. being. xx
i am sorry to hear that you
had a migraine
and sorry to hear that you were sad.
thinking about you.
there is something in here that i resonate with and that has me quietly nodding ... thinking about you and sending you love ... hugs.
Warm thoughts and hugs to you today...
While I may not know you well enough to really *get* you, I do appreciate your honesty and transparency. Your feelings and experiences resonate with me.
I will hold the sacred space of self-discovery wide open for you. What a journey it is!
Hooray for those of us who are doing the hard, hard work of changing ourselves and dancing our way to a better, healthier future!
Hugs,
Lisa