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Sunday
Jan072007

a letter

dear morning pages,

i know you are good for me. i know i should love you. i know you help me. when i spend time with you, i solve a few problems of the world. you open my eyes to new ideas. about me, about life, about my past, about my future. i start to get ideas for things: books, projects, stories, things i want to create. i know. you do all these things. you turn me inside out some days. and this can be a really good thing. you even invite “aha!” moments. yes, i know your power.

but right now. well, right now i am just raging against you. those are the words that run through my head whenever i see you and know it is time. i rage again the morning pages. yes. i rage against you. i don’t like you. i want you to go away. i can’t believe that i agreed to come back to you again. i can’t believe it. i know our relationship has, at times, been love-hate. but this time. well, this time i am not loving you at all. nope.

because, you see, i know your tricks. how you suck me in. how i tell myself i am only going to write one page but you tempt me with the truth and creativity and suddenly i am at the top of page four and realize what you have done. you will not seduce me this time. you will not prove yourself to be a tool i cannot live without.

oh no you won’t!

you won’t get me. i see you for what you are. i see you for all your messiness and truthiness and boldness and silliness and all that you can give me. i see it.

told you didn’t i?

and just you wait, when i open up my notebook again tonight, you will hear it all again.

sincerely,
someone who is super, super annoyed with you

********

(i am working through the artist’s way with my friend heather. her first time. my third. of course the first two times i didn’t get through the whole thing. last time i mostly loved the morning pages even though i didn’t do them every day. this time. this time i am raging against them. and we are just starting week two. i think the MPs are getting the first wave of me speaking my truth. good thing they don’t have any feelings.)

Reader Comments (18)

I tried doing the morning pages thing and they just laughed at me, and so I had to ignore them. I hope you do better.

January 7, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterAnonymous

oops, that was me above...violetismycolor, aka diane...http://valentinois.typepad.com

January 7, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterAnonymous

oh, how i feel your pain.

January 7, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterruby

i've always wanted to work the artist's way, but haven't found anyone whose willing to do so. I think you're onto something though......xo

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commenteracumamakiki

:)
i love the peevishness of your truth,
it is very becoming...
heehee.

and good for you for working
it through again...i'm thinking
about trying one of julia cameron's
other books since i did artist
way last january...

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commentergkgirl

:) my husband and i are just finishing week one and i am experiencing my own love/hate relationship with those stare me in the face every morning pages ...

love this post!!

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterblackdaisies

heehee...i've been there...

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterla vie en rose

ha ha ha...i suck at morning pages. mostly because i suck at mornings.

keep up the good work.

xo

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commentera m y

ah - you know you love 'em really ;-)

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterBecoming Amethyst

If you don't mind, could you send that letter to MY morning pages too?

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterkrista

this is so...kismet, once again with you, liz.

i was actually wondering what morning pages actually ARE, and wanting to do them, because i want to start writing every day. so...um...what are they? and why do you hate them?

;)

thanks. love you.

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterbee

Liz...Your writing is so amazing....in fact! YOU are amazing! :-)

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commentervicci

Hate them all you want to, Liz...but don't stop yet. I found that I broke through at about week four (I'm slow, what can I say?) and I still do morning pages just about every morning of my life in the five years since I worked the Artist's Way!!! Good luck...
--D.--

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterLeft-handed Trees...

Love your truthiness.

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterJerri

The idea of morning pages appeals to me, and I try to do them sometimes. But my brain isn't awake in the mornings and I'm not sure I want to hear what my insides have to say when I'm in that vulnerable state. It's a little scary. So, I understand your resistance.

January 8, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterdeirdre

I knew the morning pages came from the artists way....as I started reading this post. A few lines in it hit me-I think I am ready to try to work through it again.

Then I got to the bottom and felt a surge-I would love to read it with you.

But you have already started so I will just blab here and there as I work through it.

I am nodding over here to all you are saying girl.

Yumminess!

January 9, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterColorsonmymind

i've been doing daily pages for just over a month now, though not strictly keeping within the guidelines in the artist's way. i find myself continually struggling with them so it's great to read of others experiences with them. i am sitting down to read the artist's way today and try to do them in the recommended way. perhaps i will find it less frustrating!

January 12, 2007 | Unregistered Commenterleonie

I hope you don't stop writing your morning pages just because you're pissed off at them. I think that's the whole point. I just bought the Artist's Way this week and I'll be starting the course on Monday. Eek!

Don't give up!

Good luck!

January 21, 2007 | Unregistered CommenterSerizy

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