letting go of fear (a guest post by jennifer belthoff)
while we are soaking up the wonder of a newborn in the house, a few of my blogging friends are sharing some guests posts...enjoy today's musings by jennifer belthoff.
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I feel like a failure
I came here
Volunteering to be present
Seeking to be inspiring
And everything I write doesn't even sound like my voice
I feel like a fraud
These words
They aren't me
I do not write like this
I am fearful of writing something terrible
Fearful of disappointing a friend
Where is this sudden writing fright coming from?
This fear is keeping me from being myself
It is holding me back
And spewing out things that aren't me
I must take hold of the fear
Place it in my hands
Firmly let the fear know I won't hold on
Then gently let it go
Upon release
I can hear the words my heart are speaking
My hands flow easily across the page
I can see myself appearing
Free from fear
Fully present
Opening my soul to the world
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What are you able to see
When you let go of fear?
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Jennifer Belthoff is
a dreamer,
a writer,
and a collector of words.
She enjoys
soaking in the sunshine,
laughing with her family,
and connecting with people.
You can get a little view
of life through her eyes
at Giggling in the Rain
(http://www.sunflowers131.blogspot.com/).
a guest
Reader Comments (7)
wow!!! such a vulnerable post. I am so happy to see jennifer's words hear. they have helped me in so, so many ways. her words taught me to open up, dig deep inside, and create from a place i never knew wanted out. i cherish her friendship and amazing way she reaches people. love you jen. love you liz!
Jennifer - just look at you! Not afraid to take on some of the "stuff" that we all struggle with and just put it out there. I applaud you, dear girl! We know that when your pen speaks (or your keyboard!) we are not going to get some superficial "nicites", designed to be what you thought we wanted to hear. Oh, no - it's going to be the real thing - maybe not what everyone wanted to hear, but I, for one, LOVE it! And LOVE you! How fun to see so many of my friends over here!!
Thank you for sharing these poignant and beautiful words. I love the way you have given us an insight into the process that is letting go of fear. It is a good reminder that we never really let go of our fears completely, but we have to keep going nonetheless. I also see how sharing our vulnerabilities invites compassion and connection, rather than the ridicule and shame that we fear.
Kat xx
another awesome reflection of your soul, girl. thank you. and dear liz, i hope you are enjoying all the tiny things.......
when i think of you dear jennifer i think of "brave"...your chosen word in oregon.
as the months have passed i have seen that word embedded in your soul.
in your heart.
it has been both a joy and a pleasure to watch your journey of bravery.
these words are so truthfully shared.
thank you . they have given me much to think about.
loves to you.
and miss liz...hugs!
my brave, beautiful friend......
you have such a way with words.
you never cease to amaze me and i feel so blessed
to have you in my life!!!
you always are teaching me something....thank YOU for that!!!
xoxoxo
k
that was lovely, keep letting go of that fear, keep opening your soul, it is quite beautiful.