leaning. listening.

pausing in the dusting of snow we had for a few hours

Over here I'm leaning into softness and drinking mugs of spicy tea and letting in the grief and distracting myself with an audio book and several rounds of Mahjong and turning up the Christmas music and baking banana bread and noticing the ways I am loved and watching the wind blow from the kitchen window and trying to loosen my grip on expectations and wearing my favorite clothes and finding more patience inside me than I ever thought I could uncover and trying to remember that I can let in more ease with each breath.

Each day, I'm trying to create the space to listen to what I most need as I navigate what this season holds this year.

I do this for me because this is the only way I know how to make sense of this crazy, beautiful life. And because I trust that when I can show up as my most real, true self, I am also showing up for others in the ways they need me to.

What do you need?

Give yourself the gift of listening to that answer today.

Comments

[sperlygirl]

i think i need to recognize that it's okay for me to grieve from this tragic event - simply as a mother, a teacher, and a human being. it has opened some deep feelings that i am learning i must recognize.

[bella]

I crave the quiet right now.
It's a season of firsts without my mom.
Ending this year on a quiet note is exactly what I need.

[Celina]

Yes and yes! Oh my that reflection in the mug is dreamy!

[debie grace]

Hi, I love this blog entry ;) It's very deep. As for the question, I think I need a time to evaluate this year. About how my life has changed over the years, the lessons I learned and what I have missed and my mistakes as well. Anyway, have a merry christmas to you and your family ;)

[Stephanie]

The reflection in your mug: Love!
Today, I need to let "today" just happen. There's no where I have to be and I have an opportunity to simply take care of my sick babies (head colds) and spend the day reading and wrapping gifts. No outside pressures, just breathing at my own pace and living in these little moments that make up a life.