in this moment.
the thoughts of this moment...
there is a foot firmly planted in my ribs yet again tonight. it feels like it is slowing prying them open. i am trying the exercise ball as my new chair to gently hold her like a hammock and invite her to turn turn turn to a better position. one month from today is her due date and more than likely we will be getting to her meet her (if not before then) around that date. i breathe through words like induce and instead focus on the image of dancing her down into my pelvis. this is something i learned about myself at our incredible birthing prep weekend workshop: i want my labor to be about the dancing. for some reason i was thinking i needed very calming music, but when we were invited to imagine dancing our babies down into our pelvises, i found my groove. i found my hips. yes. i have this image of early labor at home being about this dancing and moving and breathing. time for just me and jon to celebrate the journey we are on together and all that is to come. and of course, i know, oh how i know that i cannot know what things will be like when she decides or when someone else decides it is time for her to arrive. but, no one can stop me from the hoping and the positive energy i am pushing toward that moment when we first look at each other and know that yes, it is really happening. but right now this rib pain is breathtaking, literally, in its intensity. payback i suppose for my doing the same thing to my mother as she stood in front of students and taught thirty-four years ago. tonight, millie sleeps while jon grades and i write a bit and work a bit. it is nice. this little family all together. and even though i might be breathing through a little bit of pain, sighing at the idea of trying to find a comfortable position to sleep in when i head to bed soon, this little foot pushing into my ribs reminds me of this truth: i am so blessed
liz lamoreux
Reader Comments (8)
I'm pregnant with my third but not due until August, so a little behind you on this pregnancy. And I can so relate to those last few weeks of feeling lots of new pains and sensations but feeling blessed too. I am excited to see how this journey continues for you.
yes yes yes.
i love what your birthing prep class brought forth for you!
Dance it, mama, dance it!
...lovin' you...
And then there's using Mom's bladder as a trampoline. . . .
it has been too long since i have been here,
i have missed your words.
i can't believe it is this close already?
one month?
wow.
you will be a fantastic mommy...
and i love the idea of the dancing...
:O)
my sweet daughter and her love danced during labor. soft swaying, breathing, loving their daughter into this world. it was magical for me to witness this most intimate experience. so i say, yes! to the dancing and forever after. love this magical mystical time for you
it is so important for you to declare your desires...dancing through it sounds perfect and your body will know what to do...it will lead you through the steps...as your baby waltzes into your arms. Labor is work, but don't you feel great after a night of dancing, even more so if you are sweaty and exhausted? of course you do, you feel full of life! What a perfect way to view this upcoming birth!
I am so happy for you as you drink in every moment of this pregnancy and birth - you are doing a marvelous work and your sweet little dancer is truly blessed to have you as a mama and Jon & Millie too!
Looking forward to hearing all about her arrival and finally meeting that blessed little girl! Much love and light to you sweet girls, (both of you) - Happy Mama's Day! Enjoy!