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choices, 27 october 07
I have been wrestling with a decision lately. One that isn't a major life decision, but one that affects my creative journey. I had decided not to do something that I wanted to do. And, when thinking about the reasons why, I had trouble coming up with any really. Thoughts about how I didn't want to "seem." However, at different times during this past weekend, I had thoughts like, "why am I not doing this?"
In the early morning hours, I woke up with this phrase on my mind, "I feel like I am asking for too much."
Asking for too much?
What does that even mean in this context?
When it comes to wanting to get my creations out into the world…getting my creative self out there…sharing my story…is there really asking for too much?
I suppose there could be, but after this phrase popped into my mind, I started grinning. Ahhh, the old fear of not being able to ask for what I want.
I realized: I am afraid.
So I got up and acted.
This afternoon, I was at the post office mailing off some packages from The Little Room. I also had to overnight a document. As Jeff, my (sorry to all the others) favorite postal worker, was stamping the express mail documentation, we were talking about various things. Sidetracked by this, I misunderstood what he meant when he said, "Must be there before noon tomorrow." I replied with, "Why?" And he looked at me with confusion and said, "Why would you get what you want?"
I started laughing, "Oh, right, the express mail package will be there before noon tomorrow."
Yes, yes, that is what I want.
Two connected ideas:
Am I asking for too much?
Why would you get what you want?
Little whispers of truth in the midst of everyday life.
Little reminders that I know what I want.
Little reminders of my dreams, hopes, passions.
And, little reminders of the need for action.
I begin.
I act.
I continue.
art + life
Reader Comments (10)
I don't know what direction you are longing to spread your creative wings in, but you have such a gift for expression, that whatever it is, I'm sure the world needs it and I hope you give yourself permission to begin exploring options soon. I for one, can't wait. xoxo
that pic?
mmmmmm...
candylicious.
and can't wait to see
where you are headed
on your journey.
bravo to you for making this little connections...life is aften so subtle about where it is leading you, but when you realize it's so wonderful! and btw, i posted today about My favorite postal worker too...how funny the usps affects us so :)
And as the Stone's songs says "You can't always get what you WANT but you can get what you NEED."
SOmetimes the universe knows better than we do what we need. I have learned to ask "For this or something better" when I want something. Why limit myself by my own huiman short sightedness?
Wishing you your ultimate good. My you joyfully embrace you unlimited potential.
whoops! I am typo queen this morning!
Interesting! It sounds like you really are in tune with what you want and need. I think the hardest part is being brave enough to listen to those little voices that say go for it. Too often those little voices of doubt overshadow the truth.
amen....thanks for the reminder
i love that the universe is sending you reminders, talking to you and more importantly, you are listening :)
and as i read this, i realize that i should be listening too .. thank you. xox
oh yes, yes yes....must email.xoxoxo
and this is where i stand up from the side lines and shout "YEs! Oh, holy YES!" :)
i love this post and i love all of the things that are being created in your little room and i love that there is so much POSSIBILITY in everything you do, in everything ANY of us do! :)
love you, liz. you inspire me, as usual. ;)