neverland
Another glimpse into this idea that is forming in my head.
In the movie Finding Neverland, Johnny Depp's character talks about that moment when you are no longer a child. That moment. Do you remember yours? I tapped into mine this weekend. Found it in the morning pages. That moment. When some of my dreams, hopes, ideas seemed to die.
But I have realized, these dreams have just been dormant. My brain was so busy and full of the responsibility of being an adult that my soul could not whisper these hopes loud enough for my brain to hear, to remember. The idea that my dreams retreated; maybe they went to Neverland for a while. The hope inside me is that I can begin to sift through the memories and find these dreams again.
A scene from Finding Neverland...
J.M. Barrie: It seems to me that Peter's trying to grow up too fast. I imagine he thinks that grown-ups don't hurt as deeply as children do when they...when they lose someone. I lost my older brother David when I was just Peter's age, and it nearly destroyed my mother.
Sylvia Llewelyn Davies: James, I'm so sorry. Your poor mother. I can't imagine losing a child.
J.M. Barrie: She didn't get out of bed for months, she wouldn't eat. I tried everything to make her happy but she only wanted David. So one day I dressed myself in David's clothing and I went to her.
Sylvia Llewelyn Davies: You must have frightened her to death.
J.M. Barrie: I think it was the first time she ever actually looked at me, and that was the end of the boy James. I used to say to myself he'd gone to Neverland.
Sylvia Llewelyn Davies: Where?
J.M. Barrie: Neverland. It's a wonderful place...I've not spoken about this before to anyone- ever.
Sylvia Llewelyn Davies: What's it like, Neverland?
J.M. Barrie: One day I'll take you there.
liz lamoreux
Reader Comments (8)
What always struck me about this scene was how he was telling her his story and she was hearing (or at least empathizing with) his mother's.
I was saddened by how his own grief must have once again seemed overshadowed.
I hope you will take us to your Neverland once you find it for yourself.
I felt something similar...I realized tonight on my 'artist date' that I have quite the taskmaster voice inside my head. I kept hearing it say "are you really making use of this time?" Where did that voice come from--that need to be 'productive' and 'responsible' in every moment. I LOVED that movie btw. Great reference...and I hope that you are locating a small piece of neverland!
I love love love that movie.
I remember mine, but don't always awknowledge them. Is that what it means to grow up, do you think?
p.s. I write most of my good stuff in the simple 75 cent school paper notebooks, because I can't bear to mess up the pretty ones with the real thoughts.
I don't know if I can recall the single moment because in reality, I think I was always waiting to grow up. I loved that movie too.
You've got me in tears yet again. Can't really remember that moment...maybe I'm still waiting for it to happen. Often I blugeon myself with, "When the $%#@ are you going to grow up?!"
I love this movie! And this scene is so wonderful in it's sadness. I tried to think of my own moment while watching it, but couldn't. Part of me still hopes I'll uncover it someday in my writing or a dream. I so hope you find Neverland. It's a place I've always longed to go.
that was a fantastic moive. you've got some good thoughts here friend. i think you're right. i think at times in the past we choose to pack some of those dreams up in a box in our soul. they stay there quietyly out of site...but never really gone.