{SPT} i'm an artist, "april fool"
These are my hands with ink under my nails soaking up the energy from this piece I created in my workshop with Anahata Katkin. I promise to go into more detail but it was my Saturday workshop and in my stories about ArtFest I am only on Thursday (and yes, I will write more about Thursday later today). But here is a preview of Saturday:
During the afternoon of this workshop, these phrases were going through my head: i am an artist. this is amazing. i am an artist. who do i think I am? this is hideous. i want to crawl under the table and weep. how cool is this? i am amazing. i hate this color. why did i take this class? black...i have never used black before. i hate black. ohhhh, i love black, that looks so cool. who do i think i am? i am so lost. this morning was amazing...and this...this is crap. i cannot capture the feelings on the page. i am an artist! april fool...
but i learned...i can be whomever i want to be. so, today, i am an artist.
See more April Fool SPTs here.
liz lamoreux
Reader Comments (16)
Oh, Liz, it does my heart good to know that someone else has that kind of inner dialogue, as painful and glorious as it is.
You are an artist.
I love this!! Can't wait to hear and see more.
You are an artist girlfriend.
xo
You captured my thought process perfectly with your words! Whenever I create a piece I think those exact things too. I wonder if an artist really ever feels truly confident about themselves and their work?
Liz, I'm having such fun reading about your experiences - I so wish I had gone too! Can we rewind? I love Anahata's work -- I met her in New York at the tradeshow where I first met the company who makes Laini's Ladies, and I liked her so much, and everytime I see her cards in stores I'm so pleased she's doing well -- and her art is better every time I see it. Also, love your stream-of-consciousness positive/negative thoughts above. The "who do I think I am?" question is such a big one in accepting yourself as an artist and fully embracing that you can be who you want to be. Good for you!
i love this
i love the back and forth
the truth
the sincerity
the confusion...
:)
(heh, not that i love the confusion
per se..
but the way that you captured it
within words, heehee)
ROFLOL!!!
What a great snapshot of your thoughts.
I often have a hard time making much sense out of this back and forth dialog that goes on in my own head.
Art fest sounds like an intense experience.
you are an artist letting go (*) of your inner critic
Liz you are too funny! I hope you are having a great time! I submit that all of us up here in the North West go next year!! What fun!
i agree with Sarah,
you totally captured my thought process as well.
us April artist fools. ;-)
you
are
an
A-R-T-I-S-T.
enjoying your ArtFest journey ... can't wait to hear about Thursday.
P.S.--I know you are an artist!
what a neat thing to get to hear your inner dialogue, liz! i always feel an inner laugh/grimace when i hear someone say, "who do i think i am?" what person or experience gave us this horrible question???? if you think you are an artist or a brilliant person, then you are. you are not a narcisstic for thinking this. be that wonderful person you want to be, all of your titles, and just BE. don't ask questions!! you are wonderful. and your hands are some of the most beautiful i've ever seen...
Wonderful! Ahh...the inner dialogue is always so fun to hear. I once had a writing instructor ask me in a retreat, "Who the hell do you think you are, John Updike?" A very close friend and I laugh about that to this day...we like to play, "Eho the hell do you think you are, FILL IN THE BLANK? Always fun.
Hey Liz,
I am so glad that I am not the only one that has these things go through her head. Oh my goodness, doing my art with a bunch of other people around---my thoughts would be swirling, just like that. Your blog is awesome!!
Teresa
Yes, I hear the voices too.
i see a superhero bracelet on those gorgeous hands of yours...
Don't stop saying it...You ARE an artist.